Living in Atlanta requires a car if you live the way I do. I am always on the go. I run the business, I play tennis and golf, I go visit my brother and his family and friends on the farm, I visit friends OP (outside the perimeter) and I have business meetings all over the city. GO, GO, GO is my life. Much of what I do requires owning a car and all that comes with it.
But, as my car lease was nearing the end of its life, I decided to take on a personal journey of a different sort. I decided that I would give up my car, for a year, and live carless in Atlanta. This adventure, as I refer to it, is not quite a week old because I gave up my car Earth Day 2010 to live a year, until Earth Day 2011.
As I was preparing for this adventure, figuring out how to turn in my leased car as seamlessly and as smoothly as possible, I made a colossal mistake. In doing so, I believe I have experienced what perhaps a lot of companies experience as they shift their business practices to a sustainable platform. This mistake was going to cost me money that I had not planned on and I was faced with a significant dilemma. The mistake was in reading the lease termination date. I had committed to going carless, a more sustainable way of living, but now, it was not going to save me money; it was going to cost me money for a few months. I was going to be paying for a car that I was not driving.
So, I am in turmoil. What do I do? I have said I am going to do this. I have told the world, through the blog and loyal readers, that I am GOING AWOC-Atlanta WithOut a Car. I have told my Advisory Council at work. I have told all 200 plus greenies at SART, I have told friends and family and my professional family that I am giving up my car, Earth Day to Earth Day. And, of course this is the week Atlanta INTOWN just finished a photo shoot and an article that includes a bit about me and this adventure. And of course, I just found out that Southeast GREEN, a site that gets over 100,000 readers, has posted my blog to their site. CNBC called and I talked about it to a reporter. It is a scary thing to have others so aware about your life.
So, I turned to trusted friends and advisors. Do I move the date? Do I keep it? What about the money? What will the financial cost be if I stay the course? If I move the date, what will be the reputation cost? If I move the date, how do I justify it? I have already said EARTH DAY to EARTH DAY. Will I need to do damage control on BRAND STEPHANIE? How will I explain it? How will I explain it to my Advisory Council, the green community, readers, friends, family? How amazingly vulnerable I felt through this 24 hour period.
Move it to July since that is the month your lease is up. You can make that work….talk about energy independence, national security and July 4th-wave the flag…etc…..was one lines of thought that surfaced. So, I let that sit with me for about 30 seconds and NO, that did not feel good. I knew I was not speaking my truth, if I went that direction. I began to realize I would be GREENWASHING if I did that. Not acceptable to me.
The only thing that felt good to me was Earth Day to Earth Day. I gave my word. But the money, I kept thinking. This is going to cost me real dollars, too. $1500 +/- out the window was a hard pill to swallow.
One of my advisors, Rex, asked, “If you were a company, what would you do?’ That question began to reveal the answers to me. The proverbial CFL began to glow. I listened as he counseled me. And what did I notice?
I felt my truth begin to wash over me. I had to stay the course.
I believe I have experienced a mini-mini-microcosm of what companies go through. I believe this experience I have had is what companies go through when they shift from traditional practices to a more sustainable business platform. And, as you know, this is what GreenBusiness WORKS advocates -make the shift and stay the course and now, I get it. I get on a deeper level, what we advocate and I get what I am advocating when I give up my car. I get the fear that can creep in when you have made a commitment and the financials begin to erode profitability. I get what it feels like when your reputation is threatened. I get what it feels like when TRUST, and brand reputation may become tarnished. I get, on a super, super small scale (although it does not feel that way to me!) what Timberland’s CEO experienced when their supply chain was tainted with leather goods that were not harvested fairly. It was an honest mistake; an unknown error that crept into the journey. These situations present an opportunity to really define your character. For me, this has become an opportunity to see who I am and what I am made of and an opportunity to see if I am who I think I am and if I really believe what I say I believe.
Wow, all of that before I even gave up my car!
In the last few years, like many of you, I have become more and more conscious of the effects my life style has on the environment. I made some professional changes and I also made some personal changes. What lies ahead excites and scares me.
So, I am giving it a try. Atlanta WithOut a Car.
Change is good, right? The noun, that is. It’s the verb that has me a bit uneasy! But, change keeps us alive and vibrant. Remind me of this if I start thinking I can’t, will you?
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